love~
Friday, May 29, 2009 at 10:45 AM | 2 comments  
i know this may sound very cliche but i love him so much. I juz done gayuting with him and i'm the happiest person in this world. i juz realized for what reason i bothered about someone who never care bout me when there is someone who always loves me and understands me ok sometimes not always but it is better than nothing.. lying on my bed and talking to him tru phone were the best activities i had ever done (for today). my heart fluttered whenever i heard his voice.. hehe.. here i tell u the keramat words from nasir eventhough it was repeated like thousands time. believe me.. these words still make me cair:
ayang..abang sayang ayang sebanyak bintang dilangit
setinggi gunung di dunia.. sedalam-dalam lautan..
haha..menyampah kan? he's my truly sunshine..giving me suffice sunshine to brighten my day. i guess more than that. he always tell me to be positive when life got me down and he basically know how to brighten my day.. my love for u nasir is basically more than words.
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al-fatihah..
Saturday, May 23, 2009 at 10:54 PM | 2 comments  

al-fatihah for nasir's late grandmother who died on 23rd May 2009 bcoz of chikungnya fever. it was a sudden death bcause she just felt sick in the morning and after done the check up at hospital, doctor allowed her to go back to take rest. In the evening, she was in her eternal rest when she was found not breathing anymore. Nasir is the most sad person cuhs he was the only grandchild who looked after his grandma since she got the chikungunya symptoms. I surely share the same feeling cuhs during my visit to nasir's hometown, his late grandma was the only one who etertain me. I spent 3nights at her house and she treated me as if I'm her fav. grandoter.. Last week was the last time i spoke to her in the phone and she repeatedly asked me to visit her whenever free. and she promised me to prepare "kerabu pucuk "i forget the ulam's name'". the picture above is the scene when she made me lemang to celebrate n welcome me to her house.. Nasir called me just now and cried of his lost.. i was speechless when i supposed to calm him and to redha for what hv happenned.



"INNA LILLAHI WA INNA ILAIHI RAJI'UN"
To God We Belong and to Him We Shall Return
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sesape yg ade sakit jantung jgn tgk
Saturday, May 9, 2009 at 8:24 PM | 4 comments  

erm.. i dunno maybe im unlucky person in this world.. out of milion ppl i am the unlucky one.. last friday i had appoinment with dentist for m.o.s (removing the "youngest teeth").. i'd be injected bius before the operation to avoid any pain during the procedure.. as the result i can't feel my right side of teeth up to lips.. it took so long for the dentist to remove it but i had no problem because i didn't feel any pain.. 1hour later i've been told that the operation was successful BUT..(i hate BUT) but the dentist was accidently burned my lips with hot handpiece. at the time i didn't really worried bout that because i was still immuned. after an hour later i felt THE BURN!! adeh dah la sakit cabut gigi cm nk mati tmbah lak bibir terbakar.. just imagine!!


maybe this is the redemption of my sins..
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pemergian nasir..
Monday, May 4, 2009 at 11:17 PM | 8 comments  
semalam hari yg sgt memilukan.. it was my last day spending time with him.. we had fun together..layan karok n nasir sang me almost all sad songs (rock kapak) sbg pesanan jgn curang bile die xde.. aku lak lyn lagu gedik2..tp de satu lagu jiwang n menduga vocal aku (kemelut dimuara kasih by ziana zain).. pastu kitorg g tgk movie.. fast n furious.4. hehe gile outdated.. tp best giler.. nasir lawak giler..die nangis mase scene dom blasah brian o'connor n when the truth is revealed..awek die mati sbb nk slamatkn dom.. erm.. nasir bab2 cinta mmg cpt touching.. erm.. pastu kitorg blk uma..mama msk gulai sotong.. sedap gile.. lepas lepak2 kt uma.. aku pown pack barang sbb nusaybah xnk bukak MPH..damn!!

pastu kitorg kuar again..nk spend time together..masa berlalu ngn cpt.. about 8p.m kitorg da smpai pudu..bli tiket nasir.. 10.30 ke baling.. time tu aku da rase betapa sedihnye aku.. aku akn start idop sorg2 kt cni.. yah.. i do have frens.. but life without him.. mcm rase xlengkap idop ni... aku xdpt nk control da.. pas kitorg melahap KFC.. tibelah sessi bertouching2..mcm2 pesanan die pesan kt aku..terutamanye..jgn sesekali curang spjg die xde.. due hrp aku sbr tggu 6 bln..die nk kmpul duit.. aku pe lg.. menangis cm org gile.. biasala..emo.. aku sempat lg merajuk tu..tetibe xkasi die blk..

about 10p.m. da tibe mase aku nk blk uia.. nasir anta aku smpai lrt.. sbb aku parking kt terminal putra.. pas bli tiket lrt.. aku rase nk pitam..aku xdpt nk trima perpisahan ni.. aku slm nasir n cium tgn die.. n then time nasir kucup dahi aku..air mata die jatuh berderai2..tanpa sepatah ucapan.. die trus pergi tinggalkn aku.. maybe sbb die xnk aku tgk die ngs.. b4 aku naik tgga ke lrt.. aku smpat berpaling.. nasir behenti tepi tu tgk aku..die bajet aku xnmpak la tu..

akibat terlalu sedih..aku terlajak..ptt aku benti kt masjid jamek tukar tren.. pastu tetibe aku da kt jln sultan ismail..aku cm blur.. aku trun dr tren n g seberang nk patah blk.. time tu aku da rase idop aku kosong.. xsmpai stgh jam berpisah ngn die.. aku da rase lemah.. tp aku kuatkn smangat.. pulang ke uia.. dgn seribu harapan

HARAPAN AGAR CINTA KAMI KEKAL SELAMANYA..
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bad day!!
Saturday, May 2, 2009 at 7:55 AM | 3 comments  
today is my bad day..abah is admitted at serdang hospital.. erm.. this is the result of his stubbornness.. ade ke ade diabetes.. but he was addicted to PEPSI MAX.. org yg xde kncing manis pown takot nk minum gas byk2.. erm.. die garu2 ckit jek..n then leh jadi luka yg amat membimbang kn.. td g clinic doc tu pown xberani nk rawat. n abah was reffered to pakar di hospital serdang..cian gak tgk abah.. die kate isnin ni ade tender pentng. 8million rm project..
hurm.. hope abah cpt sembuh..

tggal la saye sowg2 kt uma.. mama g jaga abah kt spital.. k.su, abg jo n qistina g anta my grand ma blk kg... nasir.. where is nasir? hurm..die ikot diorg blk kg anta nenek ku.. funny.. slalu berlaku perebutan antara saye n nenek shaye.. die gile kt nasir gak..siap ugut tuh.. if naseq xikot die xnk dtg cni dah.. tpaksa la merelakan naseq ikowt blk johor.. hurmm ingat nk hbskn mase ngn die b4 die blk kedah.. penah gak sound nasir " seb baik la tu nenek ay.. kalu pmpuan len giler kt abg cmtu xtau la nk ckp.." abg jo lak slalu ckp ngn nasir.. "ko ni bg minyak dagu ke kt nenek aku.." xtau nape nenek ske sgt ngn nasir..nk kate ensem..itam.. erm.. maybe sbb nasir rajin melayan die kowt..

I miss them.. miss abah..qistina..naseq..!
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the big decision..
Friday, May 1, 2009 at 7:14 AM | 10 comments  
erm.. btol org ckp..cinta kdg2 perlukan pengorbanan..kdg2 aku ni selfish giler..aku suke suwoh nasir ikot ckpaku xtentu psl.. n i was too demanding kekadang.. tp xsgka kali ni aku buwat satu keputusan yg agak mengejut..i gave him permission to choose his own future.. i mean his job..he convinced me tat working at his hometown would give some amount of money tat surely enough for us to get married n start our life.. so i thought about it for two days and i decided tat..this is the time to hav a stable income and savings since his bussiness wit my bro went slow lately.. so, i have to sacrifice..about 5 o'clock, he went to my house meeting my dad to disscuss about it. he asked 6months "cuti tanpa gaji" and my dad looked surprised about his decission and there was a serious discussion bet. them (i can't really hear them though i secretly hide behind the kitchen curton,,hehe) after a long of waiting.. nasir came to the kitchen tersengih2.. "abg blk isnin ni..abah bg" pheww.. what a relief.. after that we went to tasik buaya (tmpt nostalgia beb).
we were both sad thinking that we will be far from each other for a long time.. and he warned me, "abang sumpah ayg jadi babi kalau ayg curang"..hehe.. "xkn la ayang nk curang..penah ke ayang curang" (ayat biasa)..but honestly.. i was freakin sad tat time.. tp kn strong la..kang nasir lak meleleh.. n then we went to otk to register for celcom postpaid..we can't cont with digi bcoz it will be hard for us to bergayut since nasir dok kt ulu mane ntah.. heh u cn imagine ryte howw his place looks like..erm.. so

6 months to go..! i have to be the verrrrrrryyyyy STRONG GIRL!!!
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